Thankful makes a decision about Mr. Fahy . . .
When Mrs. Markham awoke to find the fire puttered out, and the coffee not made, she wasn’t pleased.
“Thankful Crenshaw, I love you like a good friend’s daughter, but honestly, crying at this hour and before coffee is just wrong. I don’t pay you to pout. I’m sorry to be so upset, but you know how I am about coffee.” Mrs. Markham watched for reaction from Thankful out of the corner of her eye, but when she did not get it, turned more emphatically in the girl’s direction. “I allow other things to slide, child, but not this. I will have a word with Captain Markham about our arrangement.”
Again Thankful sniveled. Mrs. Markham wanted coffee, but softened. “I’d hate to lose our friendship over such a trifling thing. I’m at wits end, and the captain knows best what to do.” The mantle clock clicked the time slowly. A horse whinnied.
“I’ll pack my things, Mrs. Markham,” Thankful sobbed.
Mrs. Markham rushed to her side. “But you have no place to go, my sweetness, just be more mindful of your chores!”
“Yes. I’m sorry.” Thankful rose to fetch the coffee pot, wiping her eyes on her gingham apron–one Mrs. Markham had a laundress make for her pet.
“Whatever are you fretting about?” Mrs. Markham asked, sitting to write out Thankful’s endless list of chores. “Do you miss home?”
Thankful nodded, but then shook her head.
“Poor girl, you’re all mixed up. That’s what love does. I should know—the captain still keeps me in conflict. But love is love, and you’re lucky to have it. Some never do.”
“Mr. Fahy is demanding,” Thankful hinted.
“That’s men. Would you rather he left you to yourself and found another?” Mrs. Markham asked. “I didn’t think so.”
“But he’s very demanding,” Thankful said, wondering if the captain’s wife was really the friend she needed right now. “I just don’t know. . .”
“I don’t know how to say this.” Mrs. Markham took the pot from Thankful– too theatrically for Thankful’s taste and mood–and filled it herself with a scolding look. “I do love you, but you’re selfish in a way. A man has to be given his way once in a while—he needs to think that you trust his judgment. I’m sure that Mr. Fahy, of all men, wouldn’t lead you astray—he’s a fine gentleman.”
“Mrs. Markham, has he had any girls before me?”
“Many girls have sought him from what I hear, but I’ve never seen him take especial notice. I do believe Lieutenant Fahy is saving himself for you—that’s very sweet, I think. You’re a very lucky girl. Everyone thinks so. Don’t ruin things for yourself by being hard on him. After all, he’s only a man.” She laughed.
Later that day Mrs. Markham went visiting while Thankful took the children out to play. The sun blazed as Thankful’s temper flared. The older children fought, and the younger ones hung off her, wilted and cranky. Thankful could see Lieutenant Fahy smoking on the porch at headquarters, and this infuriated her. Usually he tripped up to see her for a moment around midday.
“Come along, children. It’s time to go indoors for your naps.” The young ones whimpered in protest, and the three eldest ran off, knowing Thankful could not give chase with the little ones clinging to her. “Horrible little wretches,” Thankful muttered as Fahy finally trotted over to her. She pushed past him.
“Thankful, please slow down, would you?”
“Why should I? I’m busy!” she said.
“I wanted to apologize for this morning. I can be a right bastard sometimes.”
“How you curse!” Thankful said, relieved and glad for his apology.
“It’s just that you’re so darn beautiful. I’m not a patient man, and I want you. But if you don’t feel the same way . . .”
“But I do, Mr. Fahy! I’m afraid of it though, and I only want to do what’s honorable and right.”
“But no one has to know and you’re nearly my wife.”
“I would do anything,” Thankful began–she must be honest, however immature it may seem to this man, “but that.” She saw he was not pleased. “Oh, but let me explain. It’s very horrible really . . . I’ve never told a soul, but my parents conceived before they were married. It’s been a horrible marriage, and I’d hate for us to end so sadly.”
Fahy wiped his brow. The babies were crying, and the toddlers smelled like sewage. The lieutenant sighed. “Thankful, you’re a great girl—too good for me at times. I came over to apologize but also to let you know that I won’t be by this evening.”
“Oh,” Thankful said, a rush of panic and hurt coming over her. Had he even listened to her? “Well . . . why not?”
“Some of the fellows, well, I’ve been neglecting my friendships lately, and I have tonight free.”
“What will you do?” Thankful hated herself for asking.
“Just drink at The Buckskin. Nothing more.”
“Town? You’re going to town?” Thankful cried.
“Yes. Oh, you don’t think—what I said before about the others?” Fahy rolled his eyes and looked truly affronted. “Now I see you really don’t trust me!”
“No, it’s that I don’t know what to think! Before you threaten to use a whore and now. . .”
“I never threatened it!” Fahy said.
“Go ahead with the boys, but don’t expect me to be friendly tomorrow!” Thankful cried.
“So now I can’t have any friends?” Fahy complained. “You’re being unreasonable!”
“You can have as many friends as you like,” she said. “But I have no friends here at all!”
“And how is that my fault? Maybe if you were a little less stuck-up. You girls are always so dramatic!” Fahy fumed.
“You said you loved me!” Thankful sobbed now. “And I’m not stuck-up!”
“I do love you!” Fahy turned her away from passing soldiers. “Bear-up, Thankful. You’re making a fool of yourself, now,” he said irritably but hugged her. “My passion for you is so great that I don’t know how much longer I can wait. I’d never spend another moment with the lads if only I could have you the way we talked earlier.”
“So you would stay home for me?” Thankful asked. “I’m the most important to you?”
“Of course. It’s all I want, but I need to know that you trust me for everything.”
Thankful grabbed his arm. “Mr. Fahy, please come to me tonight, and I’ll be ready.”
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